Today was yet another day to walk through the valley, with clouds overhead.
It was neither a raging storm nor a drizzle but instead a constant and steady rainfall.
I want so much for this deep pain and loss to go away. The lump in my throat will not slip down to its normal spot -- wherever that spot might usually be located.
After a hard cry this afternoon I went and got my boys up from rest time. They were the same as they had been all day but yet I was able to see them in a different way.
They looked more precious to me.
I suppose I have been given a time right now to see more clearly what I do have. 2 adorable little boys who mean the world to me.
And I am so thankful for them.
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My boys' smiles helped me to lament and also carry on after our miscarriage. I knew it was okay, even honoring to God, to be sad and lament with Him. He is so good to "comfort those who mourn" (as opposed to stuffing or denying). But then again, life had to resume during the midst of it all. It is so hard. God's timing, as you know, was to allow us to be pregnant 3 cycles later and then have Lydie bug. She came 11 months after our loss. But I still remember during October (miscarriage month) and May (baby's due date). Praying for your journey as you count your blessings and mourn your losses. Praying your mourning will be cut short, as ours was. Love to you, friend!!
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